Love is all you need. And a little sex helps!
2004-05-17 || 3:34 p.m.

Love is all you need. And a little sex helps!

Had a nice quiet weekend. very relaxing. The wife and I havn't been getting along very well lately. Our relationship has been somewhat strained. We havn't really been comunicating at all. I think it has to do with the three kids we have and signing the oldest up for nursery school and soccer and taking him to swim class and then taking care of the two younger kids and bills and houskeeping and yardwork and work and keeping up with the family and all of that shit rolled into one. It's been a very stressfull couple of months. So last night I layed it all on the line with my wife. Lately I feel like I'm just around ya know. Like I'm just there and nothing more. I was beginning to doubt whether she even loved me anymore. She doesn't do any of the little things that she used to do to disprove any reason of doubt. In my book it's the little things that count. Those things people just do without really thinking about it. Little displays of affection. They can be as simple as a look or a word. When things are good you see those things all of the time. It assures you that you are on that persons mind whether they are thinking about you or not. But when the only conversation you have in three or four days is about what to get at the grocery stoe or what has to be done around the house it's not good. Back to last night, I confronted her with this and we talked for a long time. I'll be the first to say that I am stubborn when It comes to this stuff. I hate feeling like I'm the one always bringing this stuff up so I hold out and wait for some reaction from her. When I get no reaction I ignore her and this just makes things worse. So we talked and talked and the problem is that there is just too much going on and she has taken the wrong approach. I told her that if she had any doubts about our relationship that she should be honest and tell me but she has no doubts. She says lately she is just numb. I understand what she means. It's going to take a while to adjust to all of this. You forget whats really important. To me the most important thing is Her. I place her above all things. The kids are number one priority but she even trumps them. If we don't work then everything else suffers because of that. She admmitted that she has been taking the wrong approach to all of this. It was not my intention to make her feel like it was her but this time it was. She told me that I help her in more ways than I know about. I really try to do as much as I can to make things easier on her. But the fact is Three Kids in Three years is a lot of work. We're getting there. I asked her if she thought her life would be any better without me in it (which was what I was beginning to believe) and she told me that she couldn't imagine her life without me in it and above all she loves me with all of her heart. That was all she needed to say. We are and have always been brutally honest with each other whether positive or negative so I believed her whole heartedly when she said that. And I feel the same way. At least we are on the same page now. We decided we need to make a little time each day to just talk to eachother or hold eachother or whatever. It could just be a coulple of minutes but we think this well help. So it is clear that we love eachother and thats all you really need. Then after the long talk we made love. It was great. We were up half the night and we were both exhausted when we woke up this morning but it was worth it. Man I sound like such a pansy but what are you gonna do. I'll have to make a quick adjustment to secure my manhood:

The wife and I havn't been banging that much so I made up some shit about love and talking to eachother and shit like that and it worked. I fucked her brains out.

That's better.

Later,ROB