35 and counting........Down!
2004-11-13 || 1:08 p.m.

35 and counting........Down!
My birthday was on the 8th. I am officialy 35 years of age. To me it's just a number. Mentally I can't be older than 25. As far as my health is concerned I could pass for 50. I don't look old on the outside infact I usally get told that I look about 29 or 30 so thats good. It's inside my body thats growing older than the rest of me. In one of my last entries I talked about how high my blood preasure was. I found out today from my doctor that not only is my blood preassure high but my cholesterol is higher than it has ever been. 330 for those of you who watch your cholesterol. And my triglycerides are so high that I'm embarrassed to even mention the number. I really got scared when I got the call. He put me on all of the proper medications but I'm still scared. I have just started really watching my diet too so I can't even imagine what the numbers where a month ago. I have a first class ticket for a heart attack if my health continues this way. Then my wife told me that her father (who is still alive) had two heart attacks. I already knew this but what I didn't know is that he had his first heart attack when he was 35 years old. To think that I could possibly have a heart attack at this age just doesn't register with me. I feel great, I'm a bit overweight but other than that I feel fine. I just can't imagine having a heart attack at this time in my life. To think that I might never see my children grown really scares the shit out of me. I don't want to miss a minute of that stuff. Now I have to do everything in my power to stay here for them. I know this all may sound a bit melowdramatic but this is a new realization for me. I never think about dieing or death even. It doesn't really bother me. We live then we die. That's what life is. It sucks but theres nothing you can do about it. But you can (in most cases) do something about the length of you're life. That is what I need to concentrare on now.
Later,ROB