Same shit!
2005-01-12 || 9:48 a.m.

Same shit!
It seems lately like my life has become one lond day. I have been working constantly and when I'm not working I go home , Hang with the wife and kids for a while and go to bed. Lather, Rinse, Re-fucking-peat. It sucks. I need some excitement in my life. I think it could just be the time of year. I love winter but what we're experiencing here is not what I call winter. It's snow followed by rain which makes sloppy messy shitty ass weather. It really sucks. Why can't it just be winter, you know snow, then sun but the air is cold enough for the snow not to melt. I'm really starting to hate the weather here in Jersey. It's always right in the middle. In the summer it's either raining or so fucking humid that you can't breathe when the sun finally comes out. In the winter it's usually semi warm, just warm enough to make the snow melt and make everything wet and messy. And it's been raining and or overcast here for the better part of a week. the sun came out for about 2 hours yesterday and then the clouds came rolling back in. I guess I really shouldn't complain. at least I don't have to deal with a sunami or a mudslide or tornados or something of that nature.
I'm just generaly in a shitty ass mood. Last week I was as sick as a dog with a fever and a sinus infection. Then my wife got it and then naturally all three of my kids got it. It's been a hard two weeks. I don't think I've slept more than three hours in a row since new years eve which by the way was ruined because I was just getting sick that night. I managed to have a decent time anyway. We went to a friends house and watched the stupid ball drop while eating way too much food and drinking way to much champagne. Not to mention a shitload of beer.( yeah that's right , I drank at christmas time and on new years eve......footnote...Clarity.) That just kicked my cold into overdrive. When I woke up on new years day I thought I was on the verge of death. But I went to the doctor on monday and got some killer antibiotics and cleared the shit right up. Now I feel great except I can't get out of this funk. Like life is just droning on. Never has the cliche phrase " same shit, different day" held so much meaning in my life. I have to start looking for some strange on the side. Maybe that will spice things up a bit. Just Kidding. Maybe I'll just get fucking hammered tonight and write some songs about stupid shit and try make sense of them the next day. Sometimes those are the best songs. I have been thinking about getting a side project going. Starting a band that plays entirely different music. I don't know if that will fly too well with the guys in my band but it's just a thought. I'd like to play some stuff that I really enjoy myself. I love the material that we(The band that is) play but we have a following and when people come to see us they want to hear certain types of music. I'm fine with that. The stuff we play is a lot of fun but throwing in some of the stuff that I would like to play might not fly. I love reggae and punk and ska. I have a friend who plays in a ska band and we always talk about getting a band together and playing what we like to play. I don't know. We'll see what happens. It's not like I really have any spare time as it is. I also like to play Rush songs and some good ole classic rock. Maybe I just need to get a bunch of guys together and jam every once in a while. I don't know. All I know is that as far as music is concerned, something is just missing there for me. I need an outlet to express myself musically the way I want to. A little more sex from the wife would probably help too but that's a whole other issue.
Hope everyone had a great holiday season.
Later,ROB