Can you have your cake and eat it too?
2005-02-04 || 2:46 p.m.

Can you have your cake and eat it too?

I'm up for a position change at work. A move to a totally different department. I'm really excited about it because the room for growth in this new position is endless. It could be a major career boost for me........BUT!! and theres always a but. I'll have to give up certain things that I love. Some completely and some not but It will be a huge sacrafice for me. The band will suffer as well as the hours will be odd. I have never had to work on weekends before unless I wanted to get some overtime in. In this new position weekends are rotated so you don't have to work every weekend but it adds up to about two weekends a month. The money starting out is not much more than I am making now but the room for advancement is huge. I could nearly double my salary in a few short years. I love the department I'm in now. It is so layed back with zero pressure and I can work at my own pace. Also the guy who I work with and who is the senior guy in my department is probably going out on long term diability so that makes me the senior guy and that means more money. Although that will only go so far. So I'm torn and I really don't know what to do about it. The new job is in a feild that I really enjoy but on the other hand I'm really good at the job I do now. The new job will give me the opertunity to provide for my family in ways that are not possible now but I'll be working a lot more and will see less of them because of the weird hours. With the old job life won't change very much at all and right now life is pretty good, not great but pretty good. So can you have your cake and eat it too? I don't have a fucking clue. FUCK I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!! There is a third option as well. I could leave this company all together and get a position working for the township of Brick. The pay would probably be pretty good there as well and the only family we have left(in-laws) live in brick. That is the least of the three options for me though. And the company I work for now is doing fucking unbelievable. Oh well, I'm sure I'll figure it all out. I have to really analize whats important for me and my family. This is one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make. That's why I haven't written in a while. I can't think about much else lately. It's funny because I found out about this right after I updated my diary the last time. I read it and at this time last week I didn't have a care in the world. I was all pumped up about getting drunk and listening to 80's tunes all night. That never happened so I think I'll do that tonight instead. I need a release, my fucking brain hurts from thinking so much. Maybe a drunken entry in the making? We'll see.
There are a few other things I need to get off of my chest and a few beers might help let all of that shit out in the open. Till later............
later,ROB