What can I say
2005-05-12 || 1:51 p.m.

What can I say

What can I say, I'm in a major rut. I don't feel like doing much of anything lately. I have been working a lot so most of my time has been spent away from the world that exists outside of work. I miss my family and friends yet at the same time I'm not really aware of it. I feel like I'm on auto pilot and I'm just out there doing the same thing day in and day out. I need a vacation so bad. We don't go away on vacation until the first week in july. I can't wait. We're going to spend two weeks at our lake house in Maine. I can't fucking wait. It's so secluded and quiet up there that you have absolutely no choice but to relax and soak in the beauty of your surroundings. I usually get up about 5:45 am and hop in the canoe and head out onto the lake to do some early morning fishing. What a way to start the day off. The lake at that time in the morning is like glass. Not a ripple on the water. And it's a huge lake. It's 125 feet deep at it's deepest point and roughly 7 miles across. You feel so humbled by the earth out there in that little canoe. You really realize just how small and insignifigant you are. The lake is surrounded by mountains and hills so the view from the middle of the lake is breathtaking. I'll take some pics from out there this year and post them on my pictures page. I can't wait to go and be with my family and not have anything to worry about. I think after that my head will clear up a bit. I just hope I can keep from going insane until then.

The past few weekends have been pretty uneventful. Not much going on in my life. My weekends have been spent doing yard work and going to christening parties and communion parties and dropping tons of hard earned cash on gifts and bonds and what not. Now my brother-in-laws (my wifes youngest brother)wedding is coming up june 10th so thats another grand or so out the window between a gift and the shower and bachelor party costs not to mention whatever my wife had to spend on a stupid dress and shoes for being in the wedding party. Oh well, hopefully he'll only be doing this once not like her other dopey brother who's on his second marriage. God I just realized that every entry lately, though few and far between, is about nothing but me bitching. I have to get back to a normal life. I'll end it here.
Later,ROB